I am going about some changes in my life right now – by choice. Can one get bored with a schedule? I can keep one for a really long time if it helps me to stay sane but lately I feel the need for some variety and space for surprises. Also, I realize I have been adding things to my schedule without taking anything off. I have this commitment problem. Some people have trouble keeping commitments. I don’t know when to stop. At what point to you drop out of an organization that is no longer meaning much to you but you are attached to the people? I finally came to the realization that if I am attached to people, I can meet with them outside of the organization that brings us together. If the friendship is solid, it will continue.
Because I dropped a few events from my calendar, I picked up a whole morning and an evening to dedicate to something else…or just to catch up or relax. I am already feeling less stress. Meanwhile new adventures are on my horizon and these may require letting go of even more. I am ready.
At my age, self-esteem and ego are rarely an issue when I make decisions. I just do what seems right. I am not afraid to back track, that is, to change my mind after I have dropped an activity.
I don’t always know the right thing for me to do. I don’t have any fears, though. I wish I had been in this spiritual place years ago. It would have saved me a lot of grief.