I had a great night’s sleep, but I cannot say the same for the night before when I only managed 3 hours. I was burdened with a series of events that resulted in some people getting hurt. I was part the cause of the hurt so my wrestling included some guilt and regret. I chose to talk to a friend whom I can trust and who is gifted with not having a bit of judgment tainting her attitude. I came away feeling less burdened and was able to get through the rest of my day fairly attentive to the tasks at hand.
This morning is a new day, one that includes awaking, not in the usual sense of opening one’s physical eyes and tumbling out of bed. Rather, it is an awakening of the inside kind, when one sees something concerning the workings of things that one did not see before. What I saw is that each of us is growing and changing, physically, emotionally and spiritually. From the moment of birth to this moment each of us have participated in the evolution of ourselves and I believe that the purpose of it all is to awaken, for the more we awaken, the greater our participation in God’s continuing creation.
What occurred to me this morning is that we walk forward as sojourners and as such, our lives rub up against the lives of others. We effect one another’s growth. If I am selfish in a given circumstance, it will effect another person in some way. If I act with love in the same circumstance, this too will effect another person. This is both an awesome responsibility and a guilt-freeing reality. I look at the situation that was the cause of my turmoil and realize that any action or inaction, word spoken or not, effected not just those who were hurt but those who were not. I was feeling the burden of being the cause of something horrific, but in reality, I am only a small piece of the growth of others. It is nice to think that someone grows because of the admirable way I conduct my life, But I realize, too, that someone may grow because of my foolishness or irresponsibility.
In my early days of employment, I worked for a man that was a terrible manager and the result was that many people left the work situation because of him. In the end, I was one of these. I guess you would say I left willingly because I knew I would be fired. As I look back, I realize what a great teacher he was. I learned through him how not to treat those who work under you. He played an important part in who I have become. I am grateful today for this man.
As I think about this moment in time. I pray for those around me. We walk together. Paul said it well in his letter to the Corinthians: “The eye cannot say to the hand, ‘I do not need you!’ Nor can the head say to the feet, ‘Well, I don’t need you!’… there is no division in the body, but all its different parts have the same concern for one another. If one part suffers, all the other parts suffer with it; if one part is praised, all the other parts share in its happiness.”
Thank you, Creator God, for Peace.