I have been pondering time. I believe there is a time related to the turning of the earth, the cycles of night and day and seasons. Humans in their attempt to get the things done that they need to do in order to survive have created a system of keeping time. Of late, I have felt terribly oppressed by this earthly time frame that feels imposed upon me. Perhaps it is the sense of knowing how short is my life upon this earth. Or it may be that this aging body seems unable to accomplish what it used to be able to in years past. I am afraid that my goals for accomplishment have not changed along with my growing limitations.
Meanwhile, my spirituality is leading me to an awareness that there is another Reality where there is no time. I call it the Kingdom of God and I think this is exactly what Jesus was talking about when he prayed that God’s Kingdom come into the Earthly Kingdom. Some would call it consciousness. I like this word although I think it is overused. It implies an awareness that while all sorts of things are going on around me that require my attention, I can know inside myself that these things will be done eventually or they will not be done and life will go on anyway. Since this is a place where time does not exist, while I am there, I can let myself go while in the presence of beauty or friendship and not feel like I need to escape or hurry up. To Just Be, because in timelessness, this is all that is expected.
I don’t know what to do with this thinking about time. Deepak Chopra, in his book, Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul, speaks about this struggle with time and makes several suggestions to help someone move toward timelessness. I won’t list these all here but to mention three to give you an idea:
- Keep regular hours, eat and sleep on regular schedule.
- Set up an orderly work environment. Reduce distractions
- Don’t multitask. Dividing your attention leads to confusion and weakened focus.
There are eighteen in all and as I read them I realize how little control I have over my time. Part of this is my own fault. I am at a loss, really, how to change, how to gain control. Alas. I feel the need for some spiritual direction from someone who understands perfectly what I am talking about.
Meanwhile, I am headed into a day of fun and friendship. I have very few of these. I would love if these could be the majority of my days. Is that too much to ask for a 73 year old retired woman?