I am finding it hard to blog right now. I have been watching the proceedings in the senate and I get a sinking feeling. As we head down the path where the balance between the three branches of government is toppled, I wonder when and where there a point of no return.
The one question I have for the president’s defense team is this: If what the House laid out as crimes that should remove a president from office don’t qualify, what action would qualify? Is there such an action? Trump himself once said that he could kill someone and his supporters would still stand behind him.
I don’t know. DT is looking more like a monarch each day.
Awake at 3 am. I knew I would not be able to go back to sleep, so I got up and started the coffee. I read until 6…three hours. Bernie got up about 5:30. I told him that I woke up with the impeachment trial on my mind. I wasn’t arguing in my head about the the opposing parties’ positions. I wasn’t arguing at all, just laying in the sludge and feeling dirty.
I know that it isn’t any of the perspectives about the president that make me feel “icky” inside. Rather it is hatred itself that leads to the condemnation of a whole people. I believe that divisiveness is evil, based on my belief that God is One and God is Love. The extremes of taking sides with one’s own party seems cultish to me. One of the characteristics of a cult is that followers will follow a charismatic leader blindly, even denying their own doubts. Another is control to the extent that any dissent is considered traitorous.
I don’t know what will come. Our country has suffered division before, in fact, there is always division. From its birth, those who set out to create a new government showed their basic divisiveness in how they fought over how to design the new government. But the job got done. It wasn’t perfect, so adjustments had to be made along the way. More will have to be made. We are still in process.
What is frightening today is the violent tone, a vicious, bullying, condemning tone in which those with opposing views are deemed the enemy. We can get past that. Moderate, reasonable voices are around and hopefully will win out. Unfortunately, these don’t get the greatest attention. We need to know who those voices are, listen and join our own voices with them.
The frightening thing about this moment in time is that there are those who are stock-piling weapons in anticipation of a revolution of the bloody kind. We need to get out of this dark place into the light before a shot is fired. This is what kept me awake.
PRO GOD, PRO LIFE, PRO GUN.
Bernie and I saw the above on a bumper sticker driving home this morning from the mechanic’s shop.
I said, “What!!!???” I get the pro-life part. God, after all, is the source of life, all life. God loves all life, God’s own creation…all of it. But Pro Gun? Really? A person should be guaranteed his or her right to own a gun because God is standing behind them? Really? This same God who is in love with all life would approve of something that has the sole purpose of taking life away?
Now I have seen everything.
Following is a piece I wrote in my journal in 1990. It is a quote from Laurence Freeman’s book The Selfless Self.
“To be truly interior is complete opposite of being introverted. In the awareness of the indwelling presence our consciousness is turned around, converted, so that we no are longer, as we have habitually been doing, looking at ourselves, anticipating or remembering feelings, reactions, desires, ideas or day-dreamings…(the) challenge is to become other-centered. Becoming other-centered requires discipline (and) later becomes habit (and) authentic.
“Discipline (is) needed to turn our attention off ourselves. We tend to equate growth, fulfillment and development with self-analysis and conscious up-building of a positive self-image. But…we must leave ourselves behind to be whole. Then we find ourselves in everything around us, in every person, every situation, each successive moment.”
I recorded the above in my journal in 1990. I think the turn from self- consciousness to other-consciousness is as difficult as reversing of a large cruise ship to head in the opposite direction. We ford ahead in our habit of swirling around inside our head, looking at all that goes on as it impacts us. Freeman is suggesting a total reversal. I don’t know if I have ever met anyone who is so selfless.
I say “is selfless” as though it is a state of being, but I really know better. One is always becoming something, never arriving. I myself have been becoming more selfless each year of my life. I’d say that my family has required it of me. This may be what the Creator had in mind when he created families: to move us from focus on ourselves to focus on others. In doing so, we become his servants in the world.
Another Democratic presidential debate tonight! Thankfully, there are only six contestants. I remember the Republican debates in 2016. Yikes! So much nastiness! These debates are deteriorating to nastiness as well. People say that is good. It prepares them for the final debates with their Republican contender – implying that we should expect that to be nastiness extraordinaire. Also it helps to distinguish the candidates one from the other when the Democratic positions are pretty close between candidates. It makes me weary. I will watch tonight because I am a good citizen but I still have no clue where my vote will land.
Most Democrats hold positions similar to mine. For example, I am in favor of universal health care, making higher education accessible to all and immigration reform that has some semblance of compassion. Everyone qualifies, pretty much, except for the nitty-gritty details. I am not smart enough to know whose ideas will actually work. So all of this is not going go help me narrow down my choice.
As I was pondering this morning, I realized what I want most of all in a leader. I want a president that is a person of character: honesty, humility, compassion, and respect for others. I want to be able to trust him or her. I think back at the many presidents that have come and gone over my years as a voting citizen and the fact is, some of my favorites weren’t all that good as presidents. They made mistakes, sometimes with dire consequences. Some were Republicans, some Democrats. But I had a great deal of respect for them because they were good human beings.
I am not naive. I know the importance of experience, smart solutions and the ability to work with the other branches of government. But I sure hope for someone I can proud to represent the country.
I am pleased to have heard from several of my old blog subscribers that they received notification about my blog after my son fixed the problem. That inspires me to get back to work.
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This may not seem especially interesting but I discovered yesterday that a humble paper-back booklet given to me by my cousin a few years ago is very valueable. The booklet is Your Owner’s Manual, self-published by Burt Hotchkiss. When I say self-published, I mean it looks like he took copies of his manuscript to the local printer and had multiple copies made, folded and stapled. I love the little book.
Burt Hotchkiss and his wife were trained in the Course in Miracles. The little booklet is his sharing the message of the Course in a much more understandable way. He uses real-life examples including from his own life. This is how I like learning about spirituality and philosophy. I call it incarnation, ideas packaged in human reality. In fact, if a spiritual or philosophical idea can’t shown to be applicable, which means helping one to live their life in a more meaningful way, I have no time for it. Hot air. Pillow fluff.
The price printed on the little paper book is $4.95. I thought I’d get a few copies that I can share with friends I think would appreciate it. When I tried to get to the web page Hotchkiss had on the back cover, it took me to Amazon where the book is for sale, used only. The price variation was between $75 and $135. I thought “I don’t know if I have a friend I like that much.” I suppose I could loan the book to someone, but at that value, I don’t know if I trust them to return it. Maybe I should insure it.
I wonder if my book will ever explode in value like this one. If you have a copy of The Memorial of Jesus, hang onto it. You never know. If you don’t have one, better hurry up, there are only 300 copies left.
It is taking some time to get my blog up and running again. My manager/son made some changes in providers ( don’t even know if provider is the right word). Today we talked about guests being able to subscribe so that they will be notified every time I publish a new post. Magically, he was able bring that object back from oblivion. So notice on the left the opportunity to leave your e-mail. I asked him about the folks who used to subscribe that have been wondering where I have been for the past four months. He found the number of subscribers, 43, but couldn’t discern whether they are still getting notifications. So this is a test. Those of you who used to subscribe and see this blog posted in your e-mail, let me know so we know that the master has succeeded.
I am happy to be writing again. So much is going on in the world. I like to ponder these things with my readers. I continue to read for my own enrichment and do research so that when I do launch out to comment on the affairs of the world, my thoughts are informative and contribute to unity rather than divisiveness. As the title of my blog implies, I am a peacemaker. I am also a person of faith who believes in the Creator/Power of Love that desires that all human be happy.
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